mostly, the view is accurate.

a_perfect_mess @ 2003-10-29T16:26:00

2003-10-30T00:33:44Z

why the hell am i so posessive over him. it's not like i like him or something. you think i would be glad hes making friends... but i'm not. it makes me feel like i'm losing him. no matter what friends i went though, he was always one of the ones who stayed. he never left, except for once. that was really hard. i just dont want it to happen again. maybe the reason i'm so mean is because i dont want to be hurt.

i'm so dumb.

i'm so sorry.

i only want what i can't have.

2003-10-26T22:15:51Z

i realize i make exactly the same scream whether a great white is attacking me or there's a piece of seaweed brushing my leg.

my best friend is cuter then yours.

a_perfect_mess @ 2003-10-25T17:50:00

2003-10-26T01:20:58Z

leave comments: write a story, tell a secret, tell how you really feel about me, explain how you really feel about life or anything involved with it. write anything you want.

post anonymously.

i've decided tonight i'm staying alive just kicking and screaming. blood boiling and steaming.

2003-10-23T05:27:50Z

haha, so how freaking grounded are you all? ...suckers.

everyone better fill this out. i'm so serious. even if i dont know you... do it.

2003-10-21T23:26:18Z

01: what is your first memory of me:
02: how long have we been friends:
03: tell about one memory we share together:
04: describe me in four adjectives:
05: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
06: name one thing you really don't like about me:
07: name one thing you really do like about me:
08: if you could give me a gift what would it be:
09: have we ever gotten in a fight & about what:
10: have we ever hugged:
11: have we ever danced with each other:
12: have you ever seen me cry:
13: have i ever offended you:
14: what is something embarrassing that i've done:
15: what do i usually look like when you see me:
16: what do i say all the time\whats my catch phrase:
17: do you think we will be friends in 5 years:
18: do you think i am bitchy:
19: has there been anything you wanted to tell me, but didn't:
20: what advice would you give me, in general:
21: wanna make out:
22: suggest a band / cd for me to listen to:
23: is there a song that reminds you of me:

i don't care anymore.

2003-10-21T00:39:09Z

i'm sorry about the phone call and needing you, some decisions you don't make.
i guess it's like breathing and not wanting to... there are some things that you can't fake.
i guess that it is typical to cling to memories you'll never get back again,
and to sort through old photographs of a summer long ago or a friend that you used to know.
and there, below his frozen face, you wrote the name and that ancient date.
and you can't believe he is really gone, when all that's left is a fucking song.

i'm sorry about the phone call and waking you
i know that its late.
but thank you for talking because i needed to,
some things just can't wait

i almost forgot who i was, but came to my senses. now i try to be assertive. i'm making plans. i want to rise to the occasion, yeah, meet all of their demands. but all i do is just lay in bed and hide under the covers. i know i should be brave but i'm just afraid of all this change. it's hard to focus through all this doubt. i keep making "to do" lists but nothing ever gets crossed out. but i try and take some comfort in written words, because i've been feeling sentimental for days gone by... all those summers singing, drinking, laughing, wasting our time. remember all those songs and the way we smiled in those basements made of music. but now i've got to crawl to get anywhere at all. i'm not as strong as i thought. so when i'm lost in a crowd, i hope that you'll pick me out. oh, how i long to be found.

but if everything that happens is supposed to be and it is predetermined, you can't change your destiny. then i guess i'll just keep moving and someday, maybe, i'll get to where i'm going.

i know i've posted this before but really, how awesome is it?

2003-10-20T02:51:32Z

i recognize a good trend when i see it.

2003-10-15T04:48:39Z

SHIT.

a_perfect_mess @ 2003-10-11T15:06:00

2003-10-11T23:32:09Z

1.What time is it? 4:02
2.What is your name? bryanna
3.What is your birthday? eleveneleveneightyseven
4.How many sibs do you have? uno
5.What are your sibs names? robert.
6.Do you have a job? i guess. its not permanant.
7.If yes, where? lazy j ranch camp.
8.If no to #6, Where do you wanna work? a food place.
9.Do you have a car? no
10.What kinda car do you have/want? volvo

FAVORITE QUESTIONS:
11.Movie: detroit rock city/wuthering heights/cabin fever.
12.Song: right now..... #2 on the vkv cd. YEAH MIKEY!
13.Band: mineral and cursive
14.Group: NSYNC!!!!!!!!! WOO!
15.Singer: rcky martin. shake your bonbon shake your bonbon yeaaaah.
16.TV Show: clone high until it got canceled but now charmed i guess.
17.TV Channel: fox
18.Actor: GIUSEPPE FREAKIN ANDREWS
19.Actress: the little girl in matilda
20.Comic: johnnt the homicidal maniac. SYKE. im not my creepy brother.
21.Magezine: the one with all the sleazy sex articals... i cant remember what its called.
22.Food: japanese/chinese
23.Snack: im down with any snack.
24.Drink: code red!!!! but only with ice. other wise its diet coke.
25.CD-ROM Game: frogger? does anyone remember that? haha... frogger ruled.
26.Board Game: anything except monopoly. FUCK THIS GAME. (haha brooks)
27.Card Game: spoons
28.Kid Game: ummm red rover.
29.Number: 69. muahaha. actually today my favorite number is 75.. tomorrow 74. ;) london.
30.Cartoon: clone high
31.Character: ghandi
32.Disney Character: OMGOMGOMG. the jester guy from the hunchback of notre dame. or meg from hercules
33.Color: green
34.Hair Color: brunette
35.Time of the day: night
36.Day of the week: friday. because you can hang out late that night and forget you had school that day and STILL STAY OUT THE NIGHT AFTER TOO!
37.Week of the month: who cares dork.
38.Month of the Year: noviembre

LOVE LIFE ETC:
39.Do you plan on having children: no im gonna adopt. cause my mom told me that they have to like.. cut your vag and then stitch it back up. EW.
40.Do you want to get married: sure.
41.How old do you wanna be when you have your first child: dead.
42.How old do you wanna be when your married: 24.
43.Would you have kids before marriage? not on purpose. haha.
44.What would you name the boy? rhett
45.What would you name the girl? cambria
46.Are you a virgin?: yeah.
47.If yeah, Do you plan on loosing your virginity any time soon?: hahah ohman. its what i dream of. i cant wait to become a slut.
48.If no, Have you been past base 1?: maybe if i was a slut/loser who knew what base one actually meant.
49.Do you even know what the bases are?: haha. nope.
50.Do you have a b/f or g/f : nope
51.Do you have a crush?: yea
52.Who is your crush? shhhh.

EITHER-OR (PICK WHICH ONE YOU PREFER)
53.Music/TV: moosic
54.Guys/Girls: boys.
55.Green/Blue: green.
56.Pink/Purple: purple.
57.Sleep/StayUp: sleeeeeep.
58.Summer/Winter: winter.
59.Spring/Fall: fall.
60.Night/Day: night.
61.Hangin Out/Chillin: hang out cause im not a 909er.
62.Friends/Lovers: friends.
63.Cold/Warm: warm.
64.Fast/Slow: sloooow.
65.New/Old: depends.
66.Dark/Light: dark.
67.Sparkle/Shine: sparkle.
68.Peach/Plum: peach.
69.Apple/Orange: orange.
70.Laundry/Dishes: laundry.
71..Christina/Britney: im a genie in a bottle babaaay.
72.Limp Bizkit/KoRn: I DID IT ALL FOR THE NOOKIE
73.Rock/Rap: rock.
74.Pop/R&B: pop.

WHAT DO YOU THINK? (PUT WHAT FIRST COMES TO MIND
WHEN YOU SEE THE FOLLOWING WORDS:)
75.Glass: house
76.Shake: milk.
77.Club: k swiss?
78.Sing: song
79.Loud: music
80.Garcia: cherry
81.Hair: pop.
82.Ching: cha
83.Money: cha ching. haha.
84.Work: uggggh.
85.Play: wanna?
86. 4002: 909
7.Betty: boop
8.Sara: malibu :(
89.Dog: GIDGET!!!!!
90.Brain: poweeer.
91.Nick: kim.
92.Frank: furter
93.AM: aim.
95.PM: S
96.Morning: school.
97.Ball: cinderella

WHAT DO YOU THINK (WRITE WHAT YOU THINK OF THE FOLLOWING)
98.Eminem: 6 mile babay.
99.Rap: rip
100.Teenagers: DORKS
101.Smoking: ew lung cancer
102.Death: black
103.Life: is dope?
104.Drinking: liverrrr.
105.Bomb Threats: haha wtf?
106.Murder: um... i dont know?
107.Suicide: that one poem thing thats in the perks of being a wallflower
108.Fear: scaredy pants

FRIENDZ:
109.Who is your best friend?: london and sonya
110.Who is the best person to hang with?: ummm my moms pretty dope. sonya always makes me laugh though.
111.Who is the sweetest person?: zach keyes
112.Whos the cutest person: i dunno.. anyone on my radar.
113.Whos the nicest?: mikey.
114.Whos the best to talk online with?: lach when hes not being a dooork.
115.Whos the most blonde: sonya. haha.
116.Whos the weirdest: brooks
117.Whos the craziest: nick
118.Loudest: ryan chang FO SHO.
119.Quietest: daniel
120.Smartest: alex and jesse
121.Quickest: ...
123.Most Trustful: mikey
124.Most Honest: melissa
125.Most Cheerful: david

LAST FEW (Pointless) QUESTIONS:

128.What kinda mood are you in right now? procrastinating
129.Did you have a good day today? no. it WILL get better though.
130.What are you doing tomorrow: sleeping and homework i guess.
131.What did you do today?: behind the wheel.
QUESTIONS ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS 2 U:
132.Who sent this to you? uhh i got it off ryans livejournal.
133.What do you think of this person: she hates me.
134.Who do you think will be the first person to fill this out & send it back to you?: who knows. possibly chang if he hasnt filled it out yet. i know lee used to be way into these though.
135.Who do you think wont even read it?: probably everyone.
136.Do you want this to be done?: yeah so i can get ready and hang ouuut.

138.What time is it now?: 4:35
139.How long has it been since you started?: 33 minutes
140:Why is pickle juice green?: cause its gross.

a_perfect_mess @ 2003-10-08T19:12:00

2003-10-09T02:39:46Z

it's still early and i haven't even said a word and i'm hoping that i might upset you by saying what i want to, 'cause it's not like you don't know i've fallen for you. but it's in my head and that's where you can't see it, and i thought that maybe if i had to bite the tips of my fingers i could stumble over words and tell you just how far before i hit the ground. and i'm the type to think of all the wrong things to say, and i will shut myself up and i'll never come out. i'll close all my doors and only show you the black spots where my eyes once were. i can say this. i can collect myself deep down and then come out punching and i'll scream out loud.

a_perfect_mess @ 2003-10-06T20:58:00

2003-10-07T04:20:41Z

i hate it when stuff happens right under your nose and you don't realize what hass happened until its way too late.

i'm a fucking rockstar.

2003-10-06T00:11:20Z

yeaaaah.

i told you i'm a rockstar

look at ryans suit! and hahaha the guy in the red. hes so funny.

the back of jons head and scottys finger.

how precious

me and jon.

everyones feet kept getting stuck in the mud. HAHA.

the boys.

my date for the evening.

from left to right: jon a, me, dani, michael, britnay, lucas, jamie, jeff, jon t, lindsay, scotty, vanessa, lauren, some guy who totally sucked balls, ryan and kelsey took the pic. monica and davin werent in the pic either.

i think this is a great closing picture.

83 days and counting.

2003-10-04T06:59:19Z

oh my god. for winter break i get to go to maryland and visit london for like a week. i'm so excited to see her it's not even funny. i haven't seen her for more then a year. i miss her like crazy : (

my mind is there, but my heart is out to lunch.

2003-10-01T06:08:20Z

just lonely, baby. doesn't mean i'm looking for a friend. i've got plenty, i'm still learning how to lay down my life for them.

just crazy, maybe. doesn't mean i'm looking for a cure. i've got stability that scares you, cause it's hard to believe when you're so sure.

no matter how different you are, you're just like everybody else.
no matter how hard you try and fit in, there is no one like you.

meet my boyfriend giuseppe.

brandon gets hit on by mexicans.

my desktop picture. i think you can see why.

man bird? i dont know wha to say about that picture. except for he was like "its fuckin bobby" or whatever that dudes name was and told me to get a picture of it. hahaha freakin mitch allen.

mmm, mormons who spill orange crush on me and talk about poo.

hey melissa. yeah the rumors are true, this kid had a sparta shirt on.

meet the boy who will probably kill me in a gang related accident. yeah. look at that face. does he LOOK like some one who wouldn't take my life? he threw a paper football at my face yesterday... and i got moved to the back of the class. hes out to get me i tell you.

haha this fuckin kid. he speaks german. "dont shoot!"

and by the way, i stalk eric lawson.

yeah you think this girls asian, UNTIL SHE TALKS. SUP FOO?

omgomgomgomsgomgomogm matt lic of HOLES. HE WAS ACTUALLY IN HOLES GUYS.

ew look at her gross lip.

haha we only lost by a little.

im way fuckin over putting little comments under pictures.

BUT I WILL ANYWAYS. GIRLTALKKKKK<3

i love kyle hudson.

andy mackie, stoned most of the time, hot in a speedo ALWAYS.

aweasj he has a buttchin!

this kid calls me chicken sandwich... what the fuck.

this kid has THE best pickup line. he used it on us last year. his names jon wright, right? so he comes up to us and goes "hey i believe you were looking for me, my name is mr wright?" LIKE AS IN MR RIGHT. HAHAHAHA SO GOOD.

LINKIN PARK WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

and finally a night of dope people.

brooks. hes got a crush on douglas. don't we all.

lee... douglas' heart belongs to her.

and tyler who was doing japanese homework all night. party pooooper.

friends only.

2003-08-29T01:53:58Z

dope. i'm an elitest bitch.